Every chapter gives you five things
What It Looks Like
The pattern, named plainly — the words, the moves, the signs you kept second-guessing.
The Teaching
Why the pattern works — and why it worked on you. Said gently, meant completely.
What It Is Not
The line between a pattern and a bad day — so you stay honest, not accusing.
What You Can Do
Practical moves for the next time it happens — including when the answer is “get safe.”
The Biblical Lens
A whole section on what Scripture already named: pride, deception, manipulation, control, and the freedom of boundaries.
A Truth to Hold
One sentence per chapter to keep in your pocket for the hard moments.
The patterns, chapter by chapter
Read it straight through, or open it on the day you need it — the day you got the silent treatment, the day you apologized for something you didn't do, the day they came back. There's a chapter waiting for that exact day.
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Part 1
What Is Narcissistic Behavior? — the pattern, not the label -
Part 2
Grandiose Narcissism — entitled to your respect -
Part 3
Vulnerable / Covert Narcissism — victimhood as leverage -
Part 4
Gaslighting — making you doubt your own mind -
Part 5
DARVO — Deny, Attack, Reverse Victim and Offender -
Part 6
Love Bombing — intensity as control -
Part 7
Devaluation — from “you're perfect” to “you're nothing” -
Part 8
The Narcissistic Silent Treatment — space vs. punishment -
Part 9
Triangulation — competition you never entered -
Part 10
Projection — the accusation as confession -
Part 11
Narcissistic Rage — when refusing to submit triggers it -
Part 12
The Smear Campaign — controlling the narrative -
Part 13
What Is the Dark Triad? — three traits, one pattern -
Part 14
Narcissism — “I deserve.” -
Part 15
Machiavellianism — the calm, planned manipulation -
Part 16
Psychopathic Traits — coldness toward consequences -
Part 17
When the Three Combine -
Part 18
The Dark Tetrad — when cruelty becomes the goal
Taught by someone who lived it
I'm Nikkimae — a survivor of 25 years of domestic violence. When my own family turned on me for breaking the cycle, I rebuilt my life on faith, honesty, and tools that actually work. I don't teach theory. I teach what I lived — gentle in how I say it, unmovable in what I say. This book is the teaching companion to my healing workbook: the workbook heals, this book names.
"I'm not teaching you to hate the person who hurt you. I'm teaching you how to heal, recognize unhealthy patterns, establish godly boundaries, and stop abandoning yourself in the name of love."
If my pain can save one person, then it was worth it. Maybe that one person is you.
Questions
How do I get the book?
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Can I print it?
Yes — it's designed for it. Read it on any device, or print it and keep it where you need it most.
Do I need the workbook first?
No. This book stands on its own — it teaches you to recognize the patterns. The workbook is the companion that walks you through healing afterward, phase by phase.
I'm still in the relationship. Is this for me?
Yes. The early chapters are written for exactly where you are — seeing the pattern clearly and learning to trust your own mind again. Go at your pace, and if it ever turns threatening, your safety plan comes first.
Is this therapy?
No — it's peer support and education from a survivor, not a substitute for professional care. If you are in crisis, call or text 988 anytime, or the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233. You are worth immediate help.
See it clearly. Then walk free.
Start with the pattern you're living right now.
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